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[slybrunette]

Title: Five Women Alex Never Slept With
Fandom: Grey's Anatomy
Characters/Pairings: Alex/Cristina, Alex/Meredith, Alex/Lexie, Alex/Callie, Alex/Ava, implied Alex/Izzie.
Word Count: 1,012
Rating: R
Summary: They're nothing to him but a means to tide him over and make him forget. Means to an end.

Cristina

 

It’s her competitiveness, her inability to sugarcoat things and attempt to sympathize like they’re taught to – she reminds Alex of himself actually, especially then, when they were so new to this. Fresh faced interns with no fucking clue how messed up their lives were about to become in the coming year.

 

(They’ll both fall in love, they’ll both get their hearts broken. He thinks it’s karma biting them in the ass – or he would if he believed in karma.)

 

She’s so sure that she’s better than him, better than anyone else (and damn she might just be right), and she isn’t afraid to make that known. She isn’t afraid to challenge anyone who thinks otherwise.

 

He’s always liked a challenge.

 

That’s what it ends up being. A challenge, a race to the finish line. The need to prove that she is better than him (in all areas apparently). He hadn’t expected, or wanted, anything less.

 

There’s no foreplay, no time for that (anyone opens that locker room door and this goes public; no one wants that), just the act itself. Him inside her, her meeting his thrusts with just as much fervor, if not more. Her eyes are bright and alert, not lost in the moment, sighing with pleasure.

 

Neither of them wins. They both come at the same time (just like they always do in the cliché ridden romance novels, though it doesn’t necessarily work out that way in reality) and he’d laugh if he wasn’t focused on forcing his breath to come in something other than sharp pants.

 

The after lacks the awkwardness of most encounters. They aren’t even friends; there’s not enough of a relationship between them for anything to be shaken up.

 

“You aren’t as boring as I thought you were.” Which is probably the closest he’ll ever get to a compliment from her. He takes it, even disguised as an insult.

 

“Anytime, Yang.”

 

It’s an offer that she’ll never take him up on. It’s kind of better as a one time thing anyway. More would be pushing it.

 

---

 

Meredith

 

This is after. A year to be precise, and they aren’t so new and naïve anymore. They’re raw, fractured, and their insides have been ripped out and shoved back in so many times that the thick skin they claimed to have covering their feelings, emotions, is starting to become transparent.

 

She’s just cut Derek out of the picture, and Ava’s just ran off to live the life he’ll never have with the man he’ll never be (he’s not even going to start about Izzie).

 

Her eyes aren’t full of life like Cristina’s. Hers are vacant, something he guesses might have something to do with the half-empty bottle of tequila that her hand had previously been wrapped around before it had found him and traveled south.

 

She doesn’t scream, doesn’t shout declarations or curses into the air (there’s no one around to hear them anyway). She moans into his skin, something unintelligible.

 

It doesn’t matter anyway. This is no strings attached pity sex on both their parts. He doesn’t have to feel guilty when he does the girl in Joe’s bar two days later, in the exact same house.

 

Besides, fucking Meredith is like a rite of passage around here.

 

---

 

Lexie

 

There’s nothing in particular that interests him about her.

 

She’s part of this new bunch of interns, eager to get ahead by any means necessary. Sleeping with the hot resident (her words, not his) is just an added bonus.

 

Who is he to crush dreams?

 

She’s not his type. Too mousy, too bland. She’s normal, unblemished (he wonders how long that’ll last), and he’s never really been into the girl next door.

 

That doesn’t stop him.

 

He’s never liked sex in on-call rooms. He undoes the drawstring on her scrub bottoms and for just a second she’s blonde with long legs and a smile that breaks him (God, Iz). Her kiss reminds him who he’s (not) here with.

 

She isn’t anything like Meredith either (the irony isn’t lost on him that he’s been with both of them in under a month). She expects him to take charge. He wonders if this is some sort of power play fantasy for her.

 

It all ends up feeling more time consuming than it’s worth.

 

---

 

Callie

 

She’s always just been George’s girlfriend, and then George’s wife. He’d never thought about her out of that context.

 

Except he calls her Callie O’Malley and she corrects him with a “Torres” that sounds too soft, too sad, and it’s almost like he’s hearing things.

 

He’s not, and they’re done, and he’ll never ask why (he already knows and it doesn’t bear repeating).

 

She sleeps with him in some plot to get back at George (because he was the guy before George for Izzie, or at least the one still living).

 

He wonders if she knows that he’s just as much of a cheater as George is, wonders if she even cares that he may even be partly at fault (because if he hadn’t slept with Olivia then maybe he and Izzie would’ve had a chance, maybe none of this would’ve happened).

 

He knows (not wonders) that she’ll regret this in the morning.

 

---

 

Ava

 

“I’m only in town tonight, thought I’d look you up.”

 

It’s unfair of her to just walk back into his life now that he’s almost forgotten her. She does it anyway. Such is life.

 

He fucks her in a hotel room, which only makes it feel like a cheap affair (and it is, she’s still married), only he actually takes his time. He actually wants to remember this in the morning (he should just file it away; he wishes he could).

 

Her kisses taste like a goodbye they never got to say. This is it.

 

He leaves after she falls asleep, just so he can be the one who did the leaving. Just so he can have some control over the situation (and when has he ever had that).

 

It only makes him feel emptier than before.

Comments

[mad-carrie.livejournal.com]

Wow.

They’re raw, fractured, and their insides have been ripped out and shoved back in so many times that the thick skin they claimed to have covering their feelings, emotions, is starting to become transparent.

My favorite part. Brilliant.

It's as if the number of one night stands determines how damaged a person, in this case Alex, is. And sex is just the means to get hurt even more, on purpose. In other words (and in case I don't make any sense) great idea and great job!

[slybrunette.livejournal.com]

That's actually my favorite part too, hands down, so I'm glad that you picked it out.

And all these one night stands are damaging, and boy is he damaged.

I'm glad you liked this, and thanks for reading!

[ladybeth.livejournal.com]

Woot! Alex/Izzie even if it's basically just implied. I love how half of these just make him think of Izzie.

Besides, fucking Meredith is like a rite of passage around here.

Isn't it though. Or George, if you want a choice.

Me like:)

[slybrunette.livejournal.com]

Well writing half of these made me think of Izzie, so it kind of found it's way into his train of thought. Plus he has a lot of history with her, even though it was such a short time that they were together.

And yes, both of them are a rite of passage at this point.

I'm glad you liked this, thanks for reading!

[ladybeth.livejournal.com]

Alex/Izzie is kind of default with me anyhow so even if he hadn't been thinking of her, I would have.

[slybrunette.livejournal.com]

Same here. It's embedded in my brain at this point.

[ladybeth.livejournal.com]

Not a bad thing to have embeded. They are the pratically the only pairing that really gelled with me. Burke and Cristina were the other and to a lesser extint Mer/Derek but that one I've stoped caring if they break up or not.

[lil-orli.livejournal.com]

really liked these 5 very differently written pieces with alex in different mindsets

oh and this line

Besides, fucking Meredith is like a rite of passage around here.


hehe that made me snort hot chocolate

[slybrunette.livejournal.com]

That line is pure truth, I swear.

I'm glad you liked this, thanks for reading!

[waltzmatildah.livejournal.com]

Loved it, love anything from Alex's POV pretty much but this was really well written. Wasn't sure if he was really wanting Izzie throughout or Ava though, kinda seemed like Izzie but then maybe Ava at the end...maybe he wasn't sure? Maybe both...and I know what that's like...

Great work.

[slybrunette.livejournal.com]

Well I believe he has a thing for both of them, Izzie more so, but that would change and fluctate over time, and this is somewhat spread out. So that's a roundabout way of saying both.

I'm glad that you liked this. Thanks for reading!

[bebitched.livejournal.com]

I love the idea for this, and all of these are so realistic to their individual characters. I see you used that line that I gave you :)

[slybrunette.livejournal.com]

Well I was thinking on ways to use that line, and this popped into my brain. Of course you probably meant for femmeslash, but I did what I could. I'm glad you liked this, and took the time out of your vacation to come find it.

[bebitched.livejournal.com]

I was initially thinking of femmeslash, but this works well too.

This story was on my list of things to read, so no trouble at all.

[bagatellery.livejournal.com]

Oh, this is both lovely and well done. I love how you subtly portrayed Alex's personality through other characters - and brought to life those other characters as well. The introspection's done wonderfully, too. *g*

[slybrunette.livejournal.com]

Wow, thank you for such a glowing review! For a lot of these characters it was my first time really writing them (I haven't done anything with Lexie, or Callie much) so it was hard to work them in there. I'm glad you liked it!

[remainvanishing.livejournal.com]

That was so bitter. And beautiful. I love the part with Meredith. And that line fucking Meredith is like a rite of passage around here It made me smile at first, but it's really sad.
And Alex thinking about Izzie when he's with Lexie... I miss them together so much!
Thank you, great job as always! *hugs*

[slybrunette.livejournal.com]

It's bitter because I'm kind of bitter. That line was the inspiration for the story actually, my bff told me to use it and I worked it into this. And it is pure truth is all I can say.

I'm thrilled you liked this. Thanks for reading! *hugs*

[remainvanishing.livejournal.com]

But I liked that it was bitter, that made it more realistic.

[slybrunette.livejournal.com]

Well thanks :)

[(Anonymous)]

This is so beautifully written.
Alex is so lost, so alone.
Still longing for his lost love which i really think is Izzie and not AVA.

Love how you describe each character.
love the line," Besides fucking Meredith is a rite of passage"

[slybrunette.livejournal.com]

Don't get me wrong, I'm an Alex/Izzie shipper at heart, but I got into Alex/Ava towards the end of the season -- that's where that came from.

On another note, that line is actually the starting point for this story -- a friend prompted me with it.

I'm glad you liked this!

[enchantedteacup.livejournal.com]

This is brilliant! I love the word choice; it lets Alex's voice come through well!

Great job!

♣ enchantedteacup

[slybrunette.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you thought it was kept in character. Thanks for reading!