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slybrunetteFandom: Lost
Characters/Pairings: Jack/Alex.
Word Count: 437
Rating: R
Prompt: Day 3: Colors at
lostsquee and for do_not_confessSummary: He has no idea why she sets her sights on him.
He’s never been anyone’s first time.
Not Jenny Ledbetter’s, junior year of high school, or Sarah’s, three months after he fixed her. Certainly not any of the girls in between the two.
But Alex is young. She’s young (too young for the likes of him) and rebellious and maybe just a bit curious.
He has no idea why she sets her sights on him. The way he sees it he figures Sawyer is probably a better candidate for this sort of tryst. Jack has never been about the physical, not really. He tried that, in Phuket, and it didn’t really do much for him.
Of course, it probably doesn’t much matter what he wants. Alex seems to know how to get what she wants – whether others want to cooperate or not. She screwed over the man who she’d been told was her father – to save them nonetheless – and never seemed to look back.
Maybe that’s what this comes down to. Maybe this is her rebelling against Ben. Fucking the unofficial leader of the other side. That’s one way under daddy’s skin.
And as sick, as twisted, as the whole idea is, he’s kind of drawn to her because of it.
Just one more thing to beat himself up about later.
Her skin is weathered under his hands, way more than any sixteen year old’s should ever be, lightly bronzed in a way that speaks of days, years now, spent out in the sun. Her lips are soft, experienced all the same, and the way she’s kissing him almost makes him believe that she isn’t nervous about this at all. Nervous that he’ll push her away. Nervous about the outcome of this.
Almost.
He can’t help but think that Ben is two houses down, held captive now that they’ve taken over Otherville. He can’t help but think that Kate and Juliet aren’t that far either. He can’t help but let his mind wander, until she pulls back with an “are we going to do this or not?” that sounds so much more confident and forceful than she probably is.
So he’ll kiss her back, take her clothes off, show her how it’s done, and then most likely regret it every day for the rest of his life. But this is going to happen one way or another, and he just doesn’t have the fight left in him right now. Failed rescue attempts, failing everyone, has gotten to his head. At least this is something else to obsess about.
The problem with first times though, as she’s about to learn, is they’re never all they’re cracked up to be.
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Date: 2008-01-26 04:44 am (UTC)Also, this made me smile:
Just one more thing to beat himself up about later.
Loved that line. So Jack.
Great title, too. :)
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Date: 2008-01-26 04:46 am (UTC)Yeah, I had a hard time figuring out where Jack's head was. But he isn't exactly stable, even at this point in the game anymore. Not if this whole rescue thing screws up as badly as I think it will.
Title is from "How It Ends" because it's stuck in my head, lol.
I'm glad you liked this! Thanks for reading hun!
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Date: 2008-01-26 06:02 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-01-26 07:13 pm (UTC)I'm glad you liked this!
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Date: 2008-01-26 06:04 am (UTC)My mind is kinda stuck on that now. I think this is exactly how Alex would act. I kinda have a hard time wrapping my mind around Jack in this situation, this is my shameful, secret guilty pleasure (thanks for writing it, btw ;) ) but it's always totally unsided dirty thoughts in my version. But the Otherville part gave it a new dimenssion.
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Date: 2008-01-26 07:17 pm (UTC)Otherville is fun ain't it ;)
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Date: 2008-01-26 06:08 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-01-26 07:18 pm (UTC)Nighty night.
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Date: 2008-01-26 07:45 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-01-26 07:19 pm (UTC)As for Alex, thank you! I really like writing her.
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Date: 2008-01-26 09:55 am (UTC)Failed rescue attempts, failing everyone, has gotten to his head. At least this is something else to obsess about.
I think that is so Jack.
BTW, I love how Ben fits into this, being the main motivation for both of them: twisty, but so very poignant. Love it!
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Date: 2008-01-26 07:30 pm (UTC)Kind of like us fans actually.
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Date: 2008-01-26 10:12 am (UTC)Not Jenny Ledbetter’s, junior year of high school,
First of all, is it wrong that I want to Jack's first time now? Bwahahhahaha.
This was amazing. Again, the power that's shining through seemingly simple lines takes my breath away. I love how Alex is all teenage BRAVADO and almost a woman, trying to get Jack to do this while her adolescent self always flickers behind that facade.
The way I see her she really does go ruthlessly after what she wants (in that respect she fights like her mother) so she would be the one to initiate anything with Jack and he'd always beat himself up about it but give into it. Maybe even do it FOR her in a twisted kind of way.
Her skin is weathered under his hands, way more than any sixteen year old’s should ever be, lightly bronzed in a way that speaks of days, years now, spent out in the sun.
I love how you portray her as this wild creature he almost tames. How her youthful force plays against Jack's gentleness.
The problem with first times though, as she’s about to learn, is they’re never all they’re cracked up to be.
It's so JACK, how he worries about the smallest of things, not only about the bigger implications but also if she'll have a good time. At least that's how I read this line.
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Date: 2008-01-26 10:13 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-01-26 06:33 pm (UTC)There is no amount of money in the world that will get me to write Jack's first time. Unless you offer up Matthew Fox. Then we'll talk.
Teenagers always go through the rebellious phase (I went through mine about a year ago) where they want to do things they aren't supposed to do, and often times they get themselves into situations that they almost can't handle. Even if they think they can. Alex grew up fast, therefore she's more mature than she should be. She seems older, but really, she's just sixteen beneath all of that bravado.
That's one way to read that line, which actually works pretty well when I think about it.
I'm thrilled that you liked this! Thanks for prompting me (because I probably never would've written this pairing otherwise) and for leaving such great feedback hun!
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Date: 2008-01-26 01:51 pm (UTC)Bwahahahahaha! What a perfect line. I clicked because it's you, but while reading, in the back of my head a little voice was saying Jack/Alex? Jack/Alex?? and just about the time the little voice got to not sure this is gonna work, there was that perfect line, as if you were sticking your tongue out at my doubt. ;) Great job.
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Date: 2008-01-26 07:34 pm (UTC)I'm glad you liked this! Thanks for reading and reviewing!
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Date: 2008-01-26 02:51 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-01-26 07:36 pm (UTC)Jack is usually acting on his guilt, his regret, and as sad as that is I kind of love that about him.
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Date: 2008-01-26 04:29 pm (UTC)And of course Jack will beat himself over the head with this incident for the rest of his natural life.
Well played. I love it!
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Date: 2008-01-26 06:27 pm (UTC)I'm glad you liked this! Thanks for reading and reviewing!
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Date: 2008-01-26 04:46 pm (UTC)Seriously, though: this is good, insightful, disturbing work.
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Date: 2008-01-26 07:41 pm (UTC)Yes on contraception. I'm not insane, just crazy.
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Date: 2008-01-26 11:21 pm (UTC)I not only bumped up the age, I went into the nitty-gritty about details of island life that, after three years, left them both less attractive than they were in the beginning! Not to mention the boar-butchering! That totally makes it all okay, right? Right? ... *crickets*
Good to know! ... Now, being the anal-retentive detail freak that I am, I'll start wondering, "Hmm, I wonder what contraception might be available... Is there Dharma-issued birth control stockpiled? Would Sun know what to do with the indigenous flora? Is there a nutmeg or a parsley relative? What side effects would exist at effective levels? Would the island healing effect be a factor?"
(I will still be wondering about this when they cart me away to the mental institution, BTW. It's interesting, though!)
Again, excellent work.
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Date: 2008-01-26 11:52 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-01-27 01:10 am (UTC)Yeah, that's my thought. It would appear that on the island, women's reproductive systems age really fast, but Alex is young enough that she's still fertile (but won't be at, say, 25), just as the Lostaways haven't been there long enough for that effect to kick in. Seriously, though... Ben's no Luddite; it's not like he couldn't have procured highly effective contraception that's user-friendly. I guess he just thought that the .005% three-year failure rate of, say, Implanon, multiplied by the 0.7% annual for a modern IUD, was still riskier than just brainwashing Karl. My God, that man is insane... As am I, apparently.
Actually, on a semi-related note: some weeks ago,
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Date: 2008-01-27 01:15 am (UTC)By all means, run like the wind. I look forward to it!
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Date: 2008-01-26 06:46 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-01-26 06:55 pm (UTC)I'm glad you liked this! Thanks for reading and reviewing!
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Date: 2008-01-26 07:28 pm (UTC)And as sick, as twisted, as the whole idea is, he’s kind of drawn to her because of it.
Just one more thing to beat himself up about later.
oh! that is so perfectly Jack! he's slowly losing control of his actions and moral compass, ready to go to extremes even if he knows he'll have trouble living with it later.
and alex.... she would get what she wants, I think she always did. great ficlet!
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Date: 2008-01-26 07:43 pm (UTC)I'm glad you liked this! Thanks for reading and reviewing!
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Date: 2008-01-27 09:53 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-01-27 09:53 pm (UTC)I'm glad you liked it! Thanks for reading!
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Date: 2008-01-28 10:12 am (UTC)So he’ll kiss her back, take her clothes off, show her how it’s done, and then most likely regret it every day for the rest of his life. But this is going to happen one way or another, and he just doesn’t have the fight left in him right now. Failed rescue attempts, failing everyone, has gotten to his head. At least this is something else to obsess about.
Wonderful paragraph - But poor Jack. *sighs*
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Date: 2008-01-28 03:39 pm (UTC)I'm glad you liked this!
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Date: 2008-03-06 06:53 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-03-07 09:51 pm (UTC)I'm glad you thought I wrote them well. Alex is hard for me, we just don't know a whole lot about her on the show, not yet. But Jack, yeah, totally self-destructive, I agree.
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